Taking Stock

As lost as we may feel sometimes, it's important to know what you have.  Take a moment to think with me...and to feel, truly FEEL.

I am conscious of how blessed I am.  Rarely do I feel at a loss for Friends or Loved Ones.  As simple as that sounds, I am fully aware of how incredibly special that is.

This has little to do with my Sweet Dream other than to express an appreciation for the Road I have traveled thus far.  The same road that has led and will LEAD ME to my Sweet Dream.  So many others are so much more alone on their paths...or so they think.  I have escorts along the way...and I am fully cognizant of the importance of that.  We all have our Tiny Angels.  You just have to recognize who they are.

Whether they be old friends or new friends, I have been fortunate enough in my life to establish truly valuable, beautiful friendships - that upon writing about them, bring me to tears.  My family, thank God, has been a GIVEN (and the friends I've had so long that are family to me) are thankfully also GIVENS. They are amazing.  None of that blessedness is lost on me.

As I follow this path toward whatever it is I will become in my Sweet Dream... I know my journey is one that was meant to be.  The people who have come into my life amidst the craziest and most simple of circumstances have come to mean so much to me.  There is no accident here.  Period.  

You know who you are, Old and New...and I want you to know that I love you so much it hurts.  A good hurt.

The people I now can say I love... are not just the kind that flow in and out of your life, but rather the kind that leave that indelible imprint that has marked you forever.  

As in love, sometimes friendship takes time.  But when you know, you just KNOW when you've found the one.  It's the friend who accepts you with and in spite of your Past or your Imperfections.  The people who you can be vulnerable with and bare your soul...letting the mask of defensiveness fall to the ground.  

The people who, despite your feeling of incompletion, make you feel like a Fully Formed human being...by reflecting that same image upon you.  They are our soul's mirrors when it's hard to see one's own reflection...reminding us of who we are and who we aspire to be.

No matter where life takes me...here in California, back East where my family is...or anywhere else - I am EXACTLY where I am meant to be.  I am proof positive that life is PERFECT.  If you ever doubt that...please trust me that you are wrong.  That wherever you are sitting at this very moment... is literally the exact place you are meant to be.  

Life will take it's course...and there is a map leading you to your next destination.  Trust that... trust YOURSELF.  In your loneliest, saddest, most desperate moments... your life is waiting to be unveiled.  Pull back the covers, and live it forcefully.

In all of my life's imperfections...I have somehow surrounded myself with love.  It may not be the perfect romantic love (I seem to be unlucky in that arena), but I am deeply immersed in the love of family and truly wonderful friends.  

And for that, I know my journey is a Great One... but it's not over yet.  Not even close....

Sweet Dreams, 

Me

"When you realize how perfect everything is you will tilt your head back and laugh at the sky." - Buddha