Doubts creep their way in every once in a while. We've all experienced it, I think. We have Dreams or Ideas that get us boiling over with excitement only to simmer down over time until they dissipate entirely.
I've been having some doubts. And the reasons are multi-layered.
1. Can I actually make a viable living doing this? I've gotten accustomed to a certain lifestyle. Can that continue in a reasonable way?
2. Will I be as interesting a person if I leave the prestige of what I do - to be an Innkeeper and Bakery Owner?
3. Should I focus on only one of the two - so that success might be more obtainable?
All of these unanswered questions had me slightly anxious and wondering whether my Dream was unrealistic. It was time to re-heat Steve's warning - that doubts are bound to rear their ugly heads at some point or another. In his expert opinion, it was my subconscious mind suppressing my Dreams - in an effort to derail them. Why? Because it would be a breaking of a pattern I've gotten used to...not leaving the comfort zone of what IS for what CAN BE.
So I began to think of ways to make my Dream less unrealistic. First, I realized that it may be possible to do what I do and ALSO pursue my dream for the first few years. And based on advice given to me from Mike the Bakery Owner, I could certainly turn a profit making Fondant Cakes.
The cakes are expensive to buy but they are time-intensive. However, Mike said, once you get it down, you can bang out a cake in a half-hour's time. Based on the fact that my cakes take me several hours to make - I didn't see this as possible...but then, I've only done it as a hobby. Who knows how fast I could get if it was my business to do so.
Lastly, in terms of feeling as though I'd lose "prestige" by abandoning my current career...I believe that might be a state of mind. My biggest concern was finding a partner in life and love who would appreciate what I do now, but who would prefer to see me happier doing something I love. Unfortunately, I've learned through experience that not all men are that supportive. What I do now is a PART of me...but certainly not what defines me. Some men fall in love with the "packaging" and not what's inside.
In the end, I'd rather be loved for what's inside my heart...and that has little to do with what I currently do for a living.
Sweet Dreams,
Me
"How many cares one loses when one decides not to be something but to be someone." - Gabrielle "Coco" Chanel
Everyone has a different definition of prestige. You determine what prestige is to yourself. Success can also onlybe judged by you. Stop worrying about what anyone else will think or say and let down your hair and live and continue to dream big happy dreams.
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